For any of you who suffer with a chronic illness, you know it kinda stinks. One of the major reasons is because with most chronic illnesses, you don’t ‘look’ sick.
I suffer with Ulcerative Colitis. A nasty little illness that attacks your immune system like all good bugs do. But with Ulcerative Colitis, your immune system does it’s job and get’s rid of it, but forgets to tell your brain that it’s gone, so the fight to ‘fix you’ rages on and you end up with ulcers in your colon. Not a good place for ulcers to live. So you swallow down about 19 pills a day to keep your immune system from causing too much damage. These pills make you tired, so you have to nap. Now I am not one to pass up a good nap, but they are starting to get in the way of my writing time. Me no likey that.
As it is, my days are filled with trying to find new ways to market my books to people who haven’t read them (only to watch my sales decrease -grrr), blogging about my writing adventures, (cause I’ve convinced myself you really DO want to hear my rants), shoving the kiddos out the door for school and tackling the mess that IS my house. Throwing a nap into the mix of my very short 6 hour window to get everything done, does NOT help matters.
After said nap, you would assume I’d be refreshed and ready to tackle anything, but I’m not. The thing with chronic illnesses, is you’re never at 100%. There is always a part of you that is broken, worn down. In need of repair.
The reason for this rant is not to garner pity, cause trust me, it’s not. It’s to help me TRY to deal with my own frustrations regarding my limitations. I want to be able to get more books out to you ’cause there is sooooo much inside I want to share, but my body is fighting me on it. I wish I could be like my friend, Amy Miles, who has plans to write 6 novels this year, but I can’t. I have to accept my limitations and work within them. Easier said than done. I don’t like to be told no.
Now, who is up for a nap?
Author and chronic sicko